Okay, let's face it, I'm not going to be able to write today without acknowledging the fact that it's Valentine's Day and currently, to some extent, that kinda sucks for me right now. Mostly because, instead of exploring the souks of Marrakesh, hand-in-hand with the man I've been hopelessly in love with for nearly a year, I am instead, still here, at home in Berlin, alone.
For the most part, I've been keeping my shit together, but admittedly, last night I had a bit of a wobble. A little moment whereby I questioned...well, everything really. Including my stubbornness and maybe my own communication issues. However, I woke up today to the sun beaming in and I've made plans with a friend to go check out the street food on offer by Bite Club, over at the Berlinale. So thankfully, not all is lost to the land of broken hearts and rejected lovers.
Plus, I've got a whole week of cake eating ahead of me and a visit from one of my favourites to look forward to come March! In fact, regardless of anything, I have to say, I am always genuinely really thankful that I have such wonderful friends in my life. I really am. I can't deny that these past few years have been incredibly unstable and somewhat turbulent at times and there is no doubt in my mind, that I wouldn't have made it through without the help and support of my closest friends.
The English dictionary describes a friend as; "a person with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, typically one exclusive of sexual or family relations." Personally, I think the real meaning of a friend goes far beyond a mutual bond, or common ground. I think in reality, it's when you care about someone enough to be there for them and support them, when they have absolutely nothing to offer you and vice versa. People you expose yourself to emotionally and who accept and love you, regardless of what that reveals. People you can trust to share your fears, dreams and experiences with.
Admittedly, I've had a lot of fair weather friends over the years and perhaps, I too have been one on a few occasions, unintentionally, but now more so than ever, I know who my real friends are and I keep them close and appreciate them, every damn day. When shit hits the fan, you don't have to have a lot of friends in life, but you do need real ones.
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